Long time

So i figure now is the best time for me to just rant. I mean geez, it's been a year since my last posting so here it is.

I hate women.......well let me correct that. I hate what they can do to you. For the longest time, I've had a friggin wall around my heart, even after my gf Lauren, I've given up. I can't just keep doing this. Everything I am, it all goes to hell when confronted by girls. I hate it. I hate not being in control and that makes me even more uncomfortable. Call me a fool, call me a naive child, but what ever it is, call me a monk now. No matter how hard I try, i might as well give up because in the end, all i get is to watch my best efforts get trampled. Yea i know that people will tell me that it's cool man, you gotta keep trying, but why? What's the point? I hate feeling emotion. I hate feeling everything that eats at me. Shit yea, i can sing, but that's just an outlet for my heart, I got nothing else that makes me special and that's fine. I can just live my life as mundane Zu. As far as I'm concerned I don't need anyone. I don't need to live for myself, but to live for my friends, so that they can be happy when I lack that happiness. It's fine with me and now I share it with all of you. Thanks for the ears...

Zu

Well folks. it is that time of the year. It is the last week of school and i have some good news and bad news. the good news, is that I have one final to do. the bad news is that it's a paper...but on the brighter side of things i will be returning to HK for the summer <woot> and that means hanging out with my huge bro my good friends and seeing my parents. Excellent! Hong Kong has triumphed over SARS just like i thought it would. Now if only we could restart the Chinese Reproduction train again <winks> So anyways, if anyone in HK reads this, Zu's coming home. Hide the noodles make sure the seats are reinforced and brace for his arrival.

Zu